Alright, so January is coming to a close and I have determined myself to be the worst vegetarian of all time. I cannot believe how hard it has become for me to give up meat! I have eaten meat five times this month, which is a vast improvement over 5 times a week, but I still feel like a punk. Dairy was a much easier feat. I ate dairy once this month.
The most frustrating part is that I started out with such GUSTO!!! I was ready to take on the raw vegan world! Then I slipped into some wings (noted weakness from other blogs) and blue cheese. That started a downward spiral. Its funny that four out of the five times I ate meat were this week. This has been a stressful week for me. I am a creature of habit and snow has screwed up my routine. Frustration, fatigue, and boredom really put me in a Debbie Downer mood! I noticed that the more cranky I became, the more cooking shows I watched and damn you Giada, you make meat look so yummy and beautiful!!!
Observation has allowed me to note a couple of things: Much like addiction, I am going to have to change places and things. I love to go out to restaurants and vegan options are few and far between, let alone raw options. I always feel like a douche giving chefs specific instructions- as if they don't have enough shit to worry about! So here is where I need my vegan/vegetarian buddies. I need to know restaurants in the area that have good wheat free, gluten free, vegan food. Please, shoot me ideas! I am incapable of going to Station Taproom and not ordering wings.
Another thing of note is that when I was cranky, bored, and tired, I was more likely to give into temptation. I think that generally happens to all of us. Since it is inevitable that I will get tired, bored, and cranky, I'm pretty sure I need to find a hobby or distraction. I really thought I had enough at this point??? Blogs, kids, grad school, cross fit...hmmm...
Another stupid thing I did was cook meat for my family and then served it to them. That's like a crack addict firing up a crack pipe and handing it to someone. There was bound to be a puff or two. I think from now on, Nate is on meat duty.
Here are my new strategies:
1. Celebrate my accomplishments- I greatly reduced my carbon footprint and got into some really good habits
2. Forgive- I am bound to have some slip ups. Observe the cause/feeling, find a replacement behavior, and move on
3. Come up with these strategies and get my family on board.
4. My goal for February is to cut my meat consumption in 1/2 and try not to partake at all.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I really needed to vent and I need to be held accountable, even if it is to the internet :0)