Today I am grateful for therapy. I am currently working with an intuitive healer to help me overcome some physical issues and emotional trauma that I have been coping with since my car accident in 2004. She is a nutritionist, a therapist, and is just overall a cool ass lady and I feel very blessed to be working with her. While helping me deal with a lot of issues I have been having, a lot of crazy things have come up for me.
Having this happen made me very thankful that I chose to be a psychologist. Patients tell me all the time how helpful therapy is, and until experiencing it for myself, I didn't understand. My therapist had insights that I NEVER would have come up with on my own and rang so true. I always thought I was very open emotionally until I experienced therapy. Talking to someone who was completely removed from my life opened up a whole world of emotional dumping for me that I was not totally conscious I was holding onto. It was very cathartic.
Through the process, I realized how hard I try to protect the people in my life from my
emotions. Not only is it taking away from myself, but it made me
realize that I am very afraid to show "weakness." I have been trying to be real with my emotions and less protective of others. I surround myself with very capable people and I believe they can handle it. Over the past few weeks, I have allowed myself to be more emotionally vulnerable and cried and vented with friends when I normally would have tried to handle my issues on my own. I have been honest about my wants and needs and am feeling way more connected to where I am headed in my life-even though it seems confusing and scary at times.
So thank you for allowing me to talk to you about my experiences and being open to hearing about my experience in therapy. For all of my psych buddies who have not gotten into therapy like we have been told over and over to do- I would highly recommend taking the time to do it. It is very, very helpful.